Even though I want to start a handwritten diary, I also want to hold this space because I love reading blogs so much, and would love to create my own unique blog!
There is so much personal stuff to write about here. I want to write my heart and soul out. My absolute TRUTH. I want to write so much stuff that I just cant expalin anymore. I want and NEED to get it ALL out. I think that is so, so important in healing.
One day I will give my daughters all my diary's and photo albums and wisdom folders i've made - I cant wait to share with them.
Some of the recent things I want to write about are - the breakup with my first boyfriend, Ben.
Other topics include, Sexuality, feeling comfortable with the opposite sex, things i regret and learnt, how i feel i've just changed as a person since being with him - i dont know how exactly, i just FEEL different.
Iniating a meeting with carl saxby, being made redundant for the 2nd time, the girls at gatwick I miss, working for LLoyds and walking out, being freinds with alix, and how important my friends are to me lately since the split, just my emotions, how unbalanced they are, the clairvoyant that came to talk to alix, putting on weight after the breakup and how i feel changed and not me. How relationship's interest me now, and the advice ive been given has been so helpful. I have much to talk about!!!!!!!!
